Florida was beautiful. 

wishing I could go back.

These pictures are from a month ago, but my goodness, what a beautiful time. To relax, to draw back from the chaos that this life has become, to once again realize that God does not leave us alone, even through the hardest times. It's a fact that is far easier to realize when you are so close, so vulnerable to His creation. 

In John 14:18, Christ quotes, "I will not leave you comfortless, I will come to you." What a promise. What a truly beautiful thing to realize. 

Where are the words to say, when no simple words can suffice to soothe the burning sadness ravaging throughout a body, unrelenting, unwavering? 

I can’t take your pain away and I thought I made myself okay with that, but have I? How can I be okay with the knowledge that you are not? I know it is something I must accept but how am I supposed to truly acknowledge that fact? 

And I am left, my soul broken, my heart longing, my thoughts desiring to heal, to find you and to hold you where you stand now, so close but yet so far away. 

Don’t you know I would give anything to see you smile again? Not just your lips but your heart, your eyes, your mind, your entire being? it breaks my heart, to see the pain there every single day. 

I love you, don’t you know?