There are some days where my heart falls heavily, unable to be lifted, unable to be moved. It beats only out of habit and nothing more. Each beat becomes harder and harder, until finally the emotion lets go, the anger, the heartbreak, the sincere agony which has plagued me and those around me over the last year. 

And there are days, where my heart falls heavy, but my heart is carried. Carried by the One who can do all things, who can heal all hurt, who can bring peace where there is none. Each beat is no easier than that before it, but the burden is lightened, the effort becomes less. 

The Lord does not lead us through the desert for no reason. He does not leave us parched, dry, empty, without a purpose. Yes, the desert road is long, is hot, is painful, is scary, but we must trust that God’s purpose will shine through, and that His strength will carry us when nothing else can. 

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." Jer 29:11-13 

I think, as Christians, we find ourselves believing that we can sit and wait for the peace of the Lord to overflow us, and yet continue on the dark road we walk. Over, and over again, we see in the gospels, in the Old Testament, in the New Testament, of The Lord drawing near to those who drew near to Him. Drawing near to those who displayed a want of Faith and a want of relationship with Him. And I believe the Bible was written this way for a purpose. 

God knew each and every heart. Knows each and every heart. But He needs to know the door is open, that the heart is receptive, that the heart desires, that the heart longs. And especially on these desert roads, we need to draw ever closer to Him, to seek Him out, to find Him. To love Him. And He will draw near to us. 

And He will bring comfort.